If You Want Me To

Right now I find myself at a low place and I am not sure when it will pass. I know the Lord is faithful to not give me anything more than I can bare, and that He will provide me with the strength to stand up under any test.
However, I don't want to look beyond my present situation because I don't want to miss out on what the Lord wants to teach me in this moment.

This song by Ginny Owens really illustrates where I am in my life.

If You Want Me To

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

No I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When You lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the darkness
If You want me to

I will walk through the valley if You want me to
Yes, I will walk through the valley if You want me to

Psalm 13

"How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?

How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts

and every day have sorrow in my heart?

How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.

Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"

and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love;

my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me."

This Psalm has been challenging and comforting to me this week. When I hide my face from the Lord I only have despair, but when my face is turned towards Him it shines and blessings and deliverance come! Thank you Lord for pursuing me in my restlessness, holding me in my brokenness, and freeing me from my loneliness. Thank you for exposing my heart! The Lord is ALWAYS Good!

Our Trip to Flagstaff

Kurtis and I had a great trip to Flagstaff. His family has a cabin south of Flagstaff. We enjoyed all the snow and fires! It was so fun to play together, relax, and take a trip as a married couple.

There was about 2 feet of snow on the deck that we needed to shovel.

Notice how deep my feet are in the snow!

We bought sleds and headed to the slopes!


The San Francisco Peaks

The snow was coming down and we needed to get our car out!